Psyche-Clone

This post was written by admin on February 27, 2009
Posted Under: Daily Panic Battles
Credit: Coney Island

Credit: Coney Island

From the eyes of a person that battles with Panic Attacks this is good example of what the view looks like; dips, valleys, turns and twists. Although we know what lies around the corner, although we know the outcome of a Panic Attack, we still question.

This latest entry is made just moments after a Category 5 Psyche-Clone, aka Panic Attack. This is an extremely troubling one as it is what I call a Safety Panic Attack, meaning that it happened in my primary safe place, my home.

I had been busy during the day working from home and doing some painting. I got overheated and my primary trigger, stomach discomfort, launched the attack. I called my safe person, and ended up allowing her to come home and comfort me through the attack. Naturally by the time she got home, the level had subsided, however the other option was to dial 911.

So as the sensations rose, rather than welcome the feelings, my mind went to racing and all kinds of things were racing around in my head, I had pushed the roller coaster car from the gentle click clack of the ascent and moved it into the free falling twist and turns of the adventure that lay ahead.

This week my doctor changed my med. I have a wonderful relationship with my doctor, but she changed me from one tranquilizer to another, a longer acting agent that has proven results in helping people with panic attacks. Today was only day 2. However, it was not a failure in the medication but a failure in the ability to let myself enjoy the ride. To welcome the feelings, to embrace the feelings and to just let the adventure continue.

Panic had psyched me out again. I did not die, I did not have a heart attack, instead I had a panic attack. One of many that I have expereinced over the last 20 plus years, and lived through it to see the other side.

When we pray, we are supposed to hand our cares over and rest in calm assurance that God will
deal with the issue in His way, in His time. But instead, we, being humans, try to take them back and control them. When we give the issue to God and take it back we are potentially questioning that our God is God enough to handle it; we fail to trust that He can and will handle the issue.

What happened in this panic attack, I knew what I needed to do, but instead I decided to fight the sensations in every way possible. Instead of applying what I know about what the outcome of these uncomfortable sensations were, I fought with every might in my body and sould to fiend off what I was seeing rise as a terrible storm in a calm ocean.

As the ride came to an end and we ended the point of the beginning of our journey, I look back now and knw that I should have thrown my hands up, extended a hand to my unwelcomed visitor and made the visitor feel the discomfort rather than the coin being flipped.

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#1 
Written By Kelly Brown on June 12th, 2009 @ 6:50 pm

I think I will try to recommend this post to my friends and family, cuz it’s really helpful.

#2 
Written By GarykPatton on June 15th, 2009 @ 7:13 pm

my Panic Attacks have lessened after i studied relaxation techniques and took some food supplements like 5-HTP and B Vitamins.

#3 
Written By Kristen on October 20th, 2009 @ 6:44 pm

my doctor prescribed me some SSRI for my panic attacks. those medications also helped but i dont like the side effects of SSRIs.

#4 
Written By Marvinskyz on February 11th, 2010 @ 8:00 pm

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